Monday, December 25, 2023

health I never had

I see health in others
And miss a life I can't know
An imagined experience
I grieve for what I never got

I morn the life I'm missing
The freedom I don't have
Settling into a compromise
With my imperfect body

I'm frustrated by new symptoms
Trapped in this tightening trap
As my body betrays me
I adjust to the new normal

But I can't live in grief 
So I give myself space to feel
Light a candle for my loss
And then turn back to the life I have.