Monday, December 4, 2023

a moderated life

I was a active kid and also sickly
I played rough and then later suffered
Never fit in school so I was a loner
But my family friends played with me

I had a social group as a teenager
And I matched their social energy
I stated up all night and partied
And then crashed when I went home

It was in my 30s that I saw the pattern
When I act like other people I pay
And the cost is tripple the fun
More days lost than fun gathered

I learned to live a moderate life
Chose stability in my symptoms
I grieved that life wasn't like others
Gave up on a life I can't have.