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Monday, July 25, 2022

you are not me

we are us, as in more than one
but you is you, and I is I
we are not I, and you is not I
don't confuse you with me
as I know me better
And you know you better
and we only know the little
that you or I decide to share
between us.

Monday, July 18, 2022

intrusive thoughts

Drowning in my own tea
A shallow pool to fall into
I brewed my own destruction
Because my face can't swim
I forgo the sugar and milk
Brush aside a useless cup
Spill a pool into the saucer
And dive in with mouth wide
A dramatic pause of held breath
It was a random thought, not intent
An uninvited image in my head
Instead of an inhale, I suck
Slurping up my internal drama
I know I can't breath that leafy water
And I wouldn't choose to choke
Tip the saucer up to finish my drink
My tea is done, the image gone
Now back to acting normal.

Monday, July 11, 2022

loud silence

The voice in my head is so loud
With so many things to say
Things I leave painfully unspoken
With every passing day

The world doesn't welcome my words
When they contradict the norm
My mouth stays tight and silent
As words spoken would lead to a storm

As I bind my words away
Convinced silence protects me
Am I leaving others to suffer
By denying them our community

Cowardice and self-preservation
Are siblings of the same fame
I don't know what is truly right
But I live quietly, all the same.

Monday, July 4, 2022

trustworthiness

An elusive thing, trust
Sometimes fragile gift 
Sometimes stuborn blindness
Sometimes trained by suspicion 
So easy to break and hard to repair
We expect it even when we destroy it
It comes with conditions and expectation
With all our internal failings and flaws
Is it human to trust or even be trustworthy?