Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Layover girl

I never wanted to be a layover girl
to fill a space in your bed
while you waited for her

She's the one you want
that girl you haven't met yet
the perfect ideal of a girl

you think me easy
that I'm eager to keep you company
while you're waiting

but I want to be special
A girl above the rest
not a body to fill a space

I deserve more
Than to be here for your comfort
and to make you feel at ease

I'm not a tossed away thought
or a comic side story
for you to tell later

so I'm not gonna hold your hand
and be your inbetween
while you dream of the right one

because I'm somebody elses girl
Who want's more than my layover
I just haven't met them yet.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Smile anyway

Most of us struggle
At some point
Trauma doesn't discriminate
And life isn't fair

There is worth
In being authentic
You have a right to feel
Especially when things suck

The question is
What do you hold onto?
Do you linger on the negative?
Or do you move on?

Its easy to choose bitter
Bad memories pile up
And effectively suffocate
The good ones

The hard choice
Is to choose happiness
To revisit the positive
And forget the bad luck

Some consider it fake
Forcing a smile
But I find the smile lingers
Even when I force it

A positive attitude
Won't change reality
But it will change
How you feel

Life sucks,
Smile anyway.